End of the NovembeR '09

Time flies. Tml will be december~ few more days then my A lvl Sem 2 will comes to an end. Then Its my holidays time =) Wondering what can i do during the coming holidays~

Well, my Lim Buddy had posted about me inside her blog just now. So i gonna do the same here :p You guys must be familiar with her right? She always appear inside my blog....hahahaha
Me : LIM WAN TENG and She : LIM NIAM ZI- We're the Lim's family~

We got to know each other since F3. Got closer to each other since F4 untill now! Used to call each other *Teng Teng Lim* & *Zizi Lim* Ohya, we both studied in Chong Hwa Independent High School. I studied there for 1year and she studied there for 2years. But that time we werent get to know each other. Untill we met in Sri Garden.

Sing K together~~

Laughed together~~

Have fun together~~

Cam-whore together =p

ShoppinG together~~

When the guys bullied u, i got helped u to scold them bck, right? =)

No matter what they did on you, just ignore them. Don't forget you still have us, buddies^^ here supporting you~

Watch movie together~~~

We both are facing the same problems now, right?! But mine is more complicated than urs~ Anyway, Let's gambateh together!!!

We shared our secrets together as well =) But we never cried together before. Lets try it on someday~ I'm willing to lend you my shoulder to lie on to cry, if you want to. How about you ? Will you lend me urs? XD

Friendship Forever!! Buddy Lim =) Glad that knowing you~best buddy of mine

PS : How's tml? I think will be another excited day ~

( Missing you have been part of my daily route. )

# 6

PS : Would you be here?

28th

I Dunwan to wake up so early...I want to sleep longer x.X
I slept at 4plus and woke up by bro at 11am. ARGH! nt enuff sleep le :(

Waiting for my families~with the fish pond as background~
Seriously, I really really didnt cry!! Eye red bcos stil yet recover. Not bcos i cry for the whole night and slept at 4plus am. Aduihhh~~~~*lack of sleep*

Lunch at hotel. Since We have been years didnt come here for Dim Sum ady. Therefore, just come here try again. But we regreted after try the food. Wtf, food suckz!!!! I rather eat MCD than come here...woke up EARLY end up eat this kind of food!YUCK...Why not go to Concorde Hotel? Since we used to go there for Dim Sum. Concorde's dim sum suit us more ;p We ordered lots food, but we didnt really eat them. Taste SUCKZ! All just dapao for maid. We need go someplace to find food to eat. And we ate at 2pm. I swear will never go there eat anymore. Grr...........

Wan-t3nG is HERE ^^ - *missing HIM badly*

PS : I really really got dissapointed by you. Tats why the night i cant sleep.

You know de, right?

哭过就好了

哭过就好了

痛都会走的

记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的

失眠听歌

想念虽然苦涩

还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往

想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤

要找勇气却不在口袋或手上

但它一定在我身上某个地方

FFK

Today didnt get to watch Twilight with you :( Im sorry~ Sorry for putting you aeroplane :p Seriously i ady get ready want to go out liao de lo....but my mum suddenly asked me go for lunch together...so end up~ i have to ffk you lu~ Since night you also cant go de.....So its too bad for both of us....Cant watch the movie today~ This is my very FIRST TIME ffk you le~ Im better than you lor, you ffk me so mny times XD
Ohya, today you cant treat me ice-cream. So, just wait for our next outinG~~~I want Mc Flurry, Dont forget o ^^

Im in love with this song called "River Flows In You" by Yiruma.
Bcos of this song , made me wanna go touch back my piano and learn this song. This song is amazing....touching my heart deeply~~~~
Im looking the score for this song~ I wanna learn =)

Anyway, I don't decide to post ytd's post. Don't ask me why!!

PS : How's tml?

I'm Back

Im back...My college^^ Taylor's University College.

Sumthing happened today. Good and Bad, happy and sad. They were. But im not going to post them out.

PS : DOWN FEELING again!~

受了点伤

# 6

今天你是那样的理说当然
问我过得好不好
我当然回答过得很好
你真的太不了解我了 没有你我怎么可能过的好
没有我难道你过的好吗？
没有你的世界实在太辛苦
我怨恨自己竟然还在呼吸
如何是好 我现在还在过着
因为你的一句话 就会崩溃的日子

你告诉我是我独自如此还是你也和我一样
告诉我你是否也每天痛了又痛
你和我 已经太迟了吗？
我们在没有机会了吗？
我还在想念着你

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Do you feel the same as me?!

Why now you can treat me like this?

What you mean by Silent?

I did not enuff for you!? you sick, im caring about you.

How about me? im sick as well, but i just managed to receive "owh. then u mus take care" from you. nothing can say le ma?! *speechless*

nitex~*

Its 3+am right now~But i still awake. Cool!~

Darlingz, tml im nt cuming to class. Im still having holidays?! Haha, no la is bcos my eye still yet recover. Its getting worse than before. More red, more pain, more bengkak. Now my eye is like this O.o Pain untill i cant zzz. Luckily no more flu ady, if nt confirm dyinG now T________T I think probably this whole week i wont go to college la. Not because of my lazyness =p All because of my *red* E-Y-E. Argh! Sad-case~ Even now wanna go out, i MUST wear a cap or wear shades. To avoid ppl to look at my EYE! Laugh at me :(

Someone's sick as well. Why sick again?! You must take care o~ Drink more water la. Sore throat and cough must drink more water de. Hope you can recover as soon as possible. Don't get sick anymore k, bcos im worrying here @@ you know de, right? Anyway, just take care of yourself. =)

I can't do anything more, beside caring you.

I Belief on you and I trust the way I feel~♥♥♥

# 6

When someone break your heart, keep all the broken pieces untill someone is willing to tape back together again.

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I've been controlled myself not to find you within the week.

Its Hard to me, whenever i miss you, i stopped myself to find you.

Complicated.

Love you as i alway say to you~Its true*

Someday i will gone crazy~if i still continue this way

ShoppinG II

Yeah, did shopping at The Garden and Midvalley. Today, i learnt to be a Half blind people. Why! This is bcos i only wear 1 side of con go out. another side got red eye, so its hardly for me to wear con go out. NO WAY! If you ask me wear spec go out, it definately will be nightmare to me.

As usual 1st shop headed to AX. There will be sales on ytd and today =)
The sales were up to 60%. However, got sales or without sales, to me seem like no different. Whenever i saw the shirt quite nice, then i looked for my size. Eww......Don have XS size. RAWR....Saw few pieces of shirts which are nice, but the smallest size which is still available is S size. Tats why i said, got sales or not, to me really got no different la. Alway don have the size i want!

Finally i found a grey top, XS size and i love it so much. But the top costed RM 499.00. Due to new arrivals, so no discounts. But mum said if i go try it and it suite me, she will buy for me. Wow....sounds great. So went into the fitting room and try it. Omg, mum said i looked even thinner wearing it. Haih~~~~ end up not buying it la of cos. Stayed inside the shop for nearly 1 1hour~ so mny peoples there. Think of looking for a belt there. But i didnt see any nice 1~Guys got more choices than girls 1~ their belt so nice, but girls de....YUCK less choices! Not that type of belt im looking for. Walked to the guy sessions, remind me of someone. End up, i just managed to get 2 shirts. 1 black 1 white. Total we bought 9pieces of shirts from AX. And the bill is like......freaking exp. Going up to 2k.....cool !~

Then, went to Isetan...ZARA...MNG....CalvinKlein...Guess...Levi's etc. But i didnt see any nice shirt there after AX. Maybe because of my eye, so pain and itchy, i really don have the mood to continue shopping la. So we went home after that. At first planned to watch a movie after shopping, but because of my eye AGAIN! forget abt it~

*heart feel empty without you*

Armani Exchange~ AX... Im fans of AX too ♥ bside polo ralph rauren

Ps : Do you use the AX belt that i bought for you on ur this year Birthday?

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If love is a dream,

Then I hope not to wake up.

If love is confusion,

Then let my head shake.

If love is the sun,

Then let it burn on.

If love is a picture,

Do let me see.

And if Love is a person,
Please let it be me.

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ps : Problem is, Do you care? Without the one i wanna share my feelings with, everythg seem to be strange to me. You know? - Maybe or maybe not.

*my eye still pain....still RED* having FLU sommore....RAWR

2012

This morning while sleeping, i'vebeen waken up by a call from ah shin. Guess why she called me?! Hahaha....sHin asked me go ts now!~Watch Poker King with Kelly and Wai Lok at 113oam. omg, but that time when she called me ady 1039am. I watched that movie before. So i said, how about 2012? after the Poker King. Hahahaha....Shin influenced by me, so she decided watch with me. Yeah, Finally i can watch 2012 liao~

Before i go ts, went to sw to help mum to buy sumthg. And while going from sw to ts, so JAM. RAWR, so asked driver dropped at the bridge there. I crossed using the bridge. Its faster. Met them at Gasonline for lunch. omg, Guess what Wai Lok said when he first looked at me. 'You got eat or not? why looked so thin? Your maid torture you ar?' I was liked, swt ==(you want to knw why? bcos i really don have the appetise to eat. A little small portion of food can make me FULL for whole day...seriously no lies. And i realised that many pants i cant wear ady, too loose for me. Bcame thinner now T_____T really not i want, i cant control.)

After our meal, Wailok fetched Kli go bck Sri Garden to meet her mum. Leaved me and shin. Shin forgot to buy ticket for 2012. We planned to watch at 3.30pm. But tickets were sold out! wtf, 2nd times liao. I really no fate to watch this movie meh? In the end, we decided to watch at 5.30pm. And finally we got the tickets =) YEAH!! But still gt 2hours plus plus before our movie starts. So we walked around t.s , thn waited at mcd for time passes. Had our talk again. Its hard for her to go out with me, so got mny thgz wanna ask wanna talk about. And today is the best time. Finally times passed, its time to go for our movie ^^ We did our chatting for 2hours. cool!~ i like it =) The movie ended at 810pm. Then Shin's bro came to ts and fetched us home. Her brother so kind o, came to ts to fetch us home ^^ A good brother =)

Well, today didnt get to take any picha with them. Regret from not doing so and wasted. Bcos currently im having Red Eye =( My right eye so red and bit bengkak jor T_______T Take picha not nice la...later like Goldfish :p RAWR! I miss kelly so much.....Cause we've been months didnt meet liao....SAme to Wai Lok~ You all must ask me out for movie or sing K more often k :p


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If the world really come to an end, What you gonna do?

-Will you firstly think about me?
-Will you think about my safety?
-Will you call me and say gudbye to me?
-Will you say you're regret letting you go away from my life?
-Will you say im the one you love the most in your life?
-Will you stay by my side together waiting for the moment it comes?

*Maybe i just think too much~~~~~*

ps: 2012 was AWESOME! GREAT SHOW.....
(Without the one i wanna watch with, it make it not prefect.)

Shopping I

Went to KLCC for shopping just now~ Hmm...I've been long time didnt go for shoppinG. As you knw, a shopaholic cant stand it for so long de =p So decided go shopping today~Hehe...Mum decided go to KLCC instead of Pavillion. Bcos she just went there ytd. And she didnt bring me there, Mum you're so so bad bad....You should ask me along. Im bored at home le =p hahahaaha......

Seriously, i like go to pavillion shopping more than KLCC. At least pavillion gt more things suit me i can buy. KLCC de thgz all too high class and exp ady. Not ngam me la.....suit my mum more~ XD

Im bored x.x So....Like this lor!

Now you cant see the pimples on my face la =p
On the way to KLCC...

ohya, i met Meini at Parkson with her mum....hehe ^^ My Little Brother
I love DOME ?! Not Me.....
Creamy Seafood Pasta ~ my breakfast and lunch at 3pm @@
Fish and Chip

After~ i cant finish my Pasta =(

Enjoyable Day.....^^ its a shopping Day for me~

Its time to go for dinner :) Gonna go home pick up sista and bro for dinner. What i bought today? Just a Perfume from CD *the 4th bottles*and cleanser from SK II. The rest all are mum's or bro's 1~How about shirt? Didnt see any nice 1~ Mum's going to bring me to Pav for shopping on fri or sat....bcos she said AX gt sales...hahahaha....cant wait for the day~Maybe i cant wait for her, then go by my own 1st? Hehe ^^ Alright, tats my day~ =)

Wondering what i gonna do tml~ Bcos no car for tml~ I cnt go anywhere la...my car need send to workshop for repair~ Whats wrong with my car?! I rarely drive my car de...Duno how the driver drive my car la....alway gt problem....huh.....Izit can change car d? Hope so. *evil laughing* HA....HAHA....HA...HAHAHA~

Feel like i gonna make myself to be busy....At least i wont so bother about the HIM, right?? During my whole day, I didnt think of him at all. Beside morning blogging tat time. Wow, Its a gud start.... Its that true??

Feeling I

I hate myself, hate myself take your love for granted.

I am angry at myself, because I can't do anything to make you happy.

I have no one to share how i feel now. When something happened, no matter it is good or bad, you will alway be the first one to know. But now...i don't know.. the feeling is so weird.. Im willing to share with you, but i knw the result. You will either just walk away from me or just don bother me then leave me aside. You don even care about my feelings. As you said, you had no reason for you to do so.

Although you're standing right in front of me, but the feeling is not the same anymore. So near yet so far.

Everytime my phone rang, i wish there is you. Sadly, it dissappointed me the most. Last time my phone used to ring, bcos i knw there is you. Even my fren also beh tahan i alway play with my phone. We used to sms everyday. However, after the day. Msg didnt turn up. Although sometimes my phone rang up, but the received msg wasn't from the one im waiting from - YOU.

I alway say i want to move on my life without you....and yes I really want to...and I am doing so. I had suffered enuff from this~ day and night crying bcos i really miss you, thinking back within the year what we had done together, But after minute, i cant~I stopped myself from doing so. My mind's going to tell me that why u want to forget abt him? Within the year, you treat me gud enuff. Just i didnt realised them. Its just too late to me when i realised. I knw chances had given to me mny times, just i didnt bother them. Its late when i discovered i was wrong at first. Sadly, you 're not going to gv me another chance anymore. No matter what i do, what i ask now, your answer will be "NO!" I hate to see NO from you.

You alway said i need frenz more than you. Fren is the only person i need, bcos i care them more than you. But i realised that, i can stay without my frenz but not without you. If let me choose again, i rather choosing you than my frenz. They cant share my happiness and sadness with me, they don appear when i really need a sum1 to accompany me.
You're totally different. I can get ur love and caring from you. You'll appear whenever i need you to be with. You're the one i can rely on no matter what happen. I used to think that we can last forever. However, I knw it wont happen anymore. You had walked out from my life 60days ago.

What i'll do when i think of you. Recalling our memories, Reading back the msg that u sent me b4, looking at the picha that we took together b4, sign in MSN and Skype just to figure out whether u're online or not. I've been crazy doing so for 2months. I just cant stopped myself. Blinded by L-O-V-E.

I stopped missing you,
I stopped thinking why,
I stopped blaming myself,
I stopped asking for opinion,
I stopped myself to find you,
I stopped worrying about you,
I stopped wondering what are you doing there.
I stopped counting how mny days you had leaved me.
(Just can last for a minute, it will continue again and again~)

You...will never know how hard it was for me, pretending not thinking you whenever i am. I tried to cheat on myself, that i don love you aymore. I dunwan bother about you anymore. I want get into new life without you.
In the end, im being stupid again! LOVE made me looked like a FOOL!

Ytd we did had our conversation in msn. I felt so happy, bcos you finally got to reply me. But the way you replied me, not like last time you will do to me. Suddenly felt so strange on you. Are you the one i had before? It's hurting me but I wiped up all my tears and reply you. In the end, you said "you are not your cup of drink. Got what use for you to wait. Just go get a new life. Give up and go back to your life etc"
You'll never know how much it hurts when i saw those reply from you. It's breaking my heart to walk away from you. I wish there is alter memory drug can heal me. Feel numb by the pain.

All the words I ever said to you still hold true. They are truly deeply from my heart says to you.

You enjoy your single life, but how abt me?
I already forgot how to live in the single life.
I already forgot how to be single.
Am i over depends on you? rely on you too much?
Without you, hardly for me to imagine how my life could be?!
You can walked out from this r'tion this easy, but i cant~
You give up but i yet. It's hard for me.

I hate myself to ends it by my own~
Regret for making such decision.
At first I really thought we can last forever...I ady thought you will be the last 1 come into my world. But now, i still remain waited at the same place waiting for you, and yet u ady far far away from me. How long is the distances btw you and me?
If you're willing to make a little small step and move forward, i'll take the rest of the steps to you.

I wish there is time reversing machine. I wanna go bck to that day. I wanna take bck my word saying so to you. I wanna go bck to the time we had before. I miss those days u said you love me, and so I DO.
Every night before i sleep, i'll read back the gud night msg that u sent me b4. Maybe i just used to it ady. I cant sleep if i didnt read them before i go to bed. There were few thousand of msg received from you have been saved inside my phone. I just can't letting myself to delete them. Because i know you'll never send to me anymore.

Recalling the memories we had, tears falling down. I cant control myself not to cry. Within the months, i ady forgot how mny boxes of tissue i've used up to wipe up my tears. I don dare cry in front of any1 or letting mny ppl knw....i just can cry secretly inside my room on my bed. Im afraid to let ppl see, how i looked like after crying. I jus dare telling to a few ppl, bcos they can understand me. My appearance may look like a tough girl, but inside i wasn't. Im jus an ordinary girl, i still will sad, unhappy, crying for sum1. As you said im reckless girl. I cant denied. Because i knw myself really like that. I just over self-important. I admit this.

What i need now? Be strong....Be tough....Be HAPPY!
Don make your frenz worry about you.
Without him, your life haven go to an end.

You're the light bring my world out of darkness.....you bright up my life
Please don't stop loving me,
Even though I'm not your gf anymore, I'll still be here for you.

Can i wipe up all my tears and start get into a new life? - undefined.
I cant bluff myself. I trust the way i feel.
Can i trust the way i feel?

I really think you're my last romance, how about you?!
I afraid that you'll find sum1 else...
How about our memories? More Bad and unhappy in stead of happy.
Wondering will you ever miss me, think of me?

Finally finished blogging. Such a looonnnnggg post i ever had. All full with the HIM . He's important in my life. i ALWAY placed him No1. Never failed.

Whether you'll cum read this blog or not...I didnt pay much hope with tis anymore.
Seem like telling or nt......useless and pointless....
You'll never bother ME at all~

I'll continue blogging everyday~ Its the best way to express my feeling by blogging.

(especially for you....)

the last romance of mine

# 4

You'll never fall for someone you never shared your smiles with.

* 11 * 11 *

TRUE LOVE doesn't have a happy ending,

TRUE LOVE has no ending.

(8weeks = 56days) passed

*+*~ 对不起,我还爱你 ~*+*

Day and night, just missinG someone badly...

# 3

Someone's holding my heart and soul~

Rainie Love ♥ 雨爱

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窗外的天气
就像是 你多变的表情

下雨了

雨陪我哭泣

看不清

我也不想看清

离开你 我安静的抽离

不忍揭晓的剧情

我的泪流在心里

学会放弃

听雨的声音

一滴滴清晰

你的呼吸象雨滴渗入我的爱里

真希望雨能下不停

雨爱的秘密

能一直延续

我相信 我将会看到彩虹的美丽

屋内的湿气象储存爱你的记忆

真希望雨能下不停

雨爱的秘密能一直延续

我相信 我将会看到

彩虹的美丽

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# 2

# 1

T___________T

Done Business Studies Paper 2 today!~ ARGH!!!
One more to go....cant wait to enjoy my holidays le~ Actually now im enjoyinG....woohoo ^^

Fetched my sister bck from tuition~she suggested this: "lets go salon now, i want cut my hair shorter. Monday got sport check ar." SInce bck home aso nth to do, so fetched her there lo. Reached there, then she started influenced me. " You want cut your hair ma? YOur hair too loong ady...not nice le etc" Blablabla....End up, i cut it shorter! T____________T

Thankz to lovely my sista~

back home with this~ Im fans of polo ralph lauren :p Jacket and t-shirt.

Looked fair here ^^ hahahaha

I miss my loooonnngg hair~

Should i dye my hair? Copper brown

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If caring you is sumthg that u don wish me to do, i'll stop it. I'll keep them deeply inside my heart without telling you anymore.

Just take care of yourself well~

*It's been so hard for me to give my heart away from you*

我爱他

By : 丁当

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

(Im in love with this song~ ♥)

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(hope u're reading this)

You sick le?
I wish i can go see you now...But sadly i need to stay at home to study for tml's exam~and i knw u don wish me to go your hse to find you~nevermind
Im so worried about you....How you feel now? better or still ill? why suddenly sick le?
Go see doctor later, if possible...Don eat panadol anymore~not gud de :( Drink more water~rest more....eat medicines,you'll recover faster~ Take gud care of yourself , ok?
What can i do next? I only can keep all my worries abt you inside my heart by nt telling you.
You happy, i will be happy~ TAKE CARE ♥

I miss You ♥♥♥