If~*

I were get closer to you, what would you think?

(I don't have the courage.) > its true. you should knw that.

Because i'm like a fool....

Even though i know looking is all i can do...

p.s : Again its another meaningful lyrics for myself~ no doubt*

25.05

Its time to Say Hello to my Exam and Say gudbye to my 19th birthday

The Last Exam im sitting for Cambridge A level ~

Glad to say that whatever i studied, really came out in this paper =D hehe...But just not enuff time to write out all the points that i knew. Time given was too short for me. My handwriting too slow ady :(

First paper - Law 33 (DONE!)

Went to The Gardens with Mira right after our paper ended!! Accompanied her to take her prom dress....hehe ^^

Had our meal @ Pasta Zanmai...mid valley Food eater is here, ME =p too much? yea, the greedy me who ordered so much and yet i couldnt finish them.

Watched Robin Hood =D with mira and babi han @ midvalley. At first called the babi wanna asked him midvalley and the gardens got any nice restaurant can go to makan! In the end, babi came and joined us for movie right after his college. 2 babi bumped into each other again, guess u all knw what will happen next =D hehe~
ermm...The starting of this movie really quite sien. It made me wanna sleep inside the cinema. Cause lack of sleep ytd =p and this hall was so damn freaking COLD! we all *frozen inside the cinema @@ This movie failed to make me fall asleep~ hehe..only the starting part is quite boring....overall, this movie not bad =P The next movie im looking for -Prince of Persia : The sands of time. Anyone interest? =p

祝我生日快乐!!

I'm officially 19 now =D

This year is my last time to celebrate the birthday starting with the number of 1~ 24-05-2010

of course i dunwan just celebrate it alone =D Glad to have friends and family around =) i really enjoyed my birthday celebration till the MAX this year.

Especially to my dear friends, either from primary or secondary,

Thx for giving me so wonderful sweet 19th. Suprises and jokes. appreciate muchhie ♥

Sad to say, once finished my birthday, my A2 Final exam is cuming! just right after the day of my Big Day!! tmr morning gonna sit for my contract law paper 3! well, i pray that whatever i've been studied will come out in my exam..or else, i gonna be so DEAD again!! I've been wasted too much time on the coutinously few days celebration with awesome peoples! But still, never regret of it~ Thx for giving me the memories for my 19th.

Once again,

thx for all the birthday wishes either from text ,msg and calls =)

Most of the present that i had received this year, all in pink ~ Yes, im a pink lover ♥ and im so proud of this =D

All the best to all my friends who are sitting A2 and AS exam tmr....

Gud luck peoples!♥

My 19th - part III

Date : 23-05-2010 till 24-05-2010
Time : 10plus pm till late night

Venue : My house
Aims : Countdown countdown!!

Red Wine brought from oxx. The birthday boy said wanna drink alcohol on that night, so ngam that oxx brought this came along.Yum...yum...yum Sing ^^ cheersTime to cut cake now =D wondering why the cake with 2 candles while we are just 19th? ya according to them, they said one for me, one for zhong yi ~ so that we no nid fight to blow the candles =pThe GirlsThe boysthe group picha ^^ self-timer~ cos every1 was sleeping at that time! its kinda late that time so no1 free to layan us~wow....the birthday boy got *New Cap* !!Funny picha ! See what happend on the birthday boy =p omg....pity him!wakakakaDo you see what im holding there? its the most special* present that i received so far! smart la you all, choose this as present, summore with my favour colour - pink!! thx knowing me lurve pink so much ^^Here we are =D the birthday babies. We knw each other since primary std 3, but this is our 1st time celebrate our birthday together!Khai Hui =) after today, i'll never called u as 'the most lousy organiser in da world' =D Wanna knw why i called her that way? Asked her to plan about tonight and i requested her i want Suprise too, but she 'failed' at first. She told me that many of them nt cuming. sob i was so damn disappointed at 1st!! In the end, ta-da!! most of them CAME! most funny part : she still ables to smile at me, when i scolded her bcos she didnt do her job well =( Guess, she smiled at me cos i still duno there are suprises COMING soon!!Xin Yin, you CHEATED me!! how could you ='( When i sms you this afternoon about are you cuming tonight, you told me that u can't make it. How sad and disappointed i was, you knw? ='( In the end, you came to my house with Birthday Cake! Omg....i was like stoned for a moment! nahh, i no cry la =p of cos gamdong la..!! you really really came! hehe ^^ never forgot to say, I'll never forgot WHAT PRESENT YOU BOUGHT ME !! wondering its who's GREAT IDEA! =DMichelle =) hope you won't get bored on that night ~Shook Yin =) at first she couldnt come, cos she gonna babysit her little bro untill her bro fall asleep. At last, she came and celebrated with us before the celebration started XDKah Ying, came too =) i tot you were in Subang hostel didnt cum bck to home this week. She also represented our dear friend, her brother - KenSheng who now in Japan! though he wasnt here with us, but we never forgot about him =D Chuan Huat aka Babi =D i knw the wanna eat that, but its not mine. so sry =p The another 1 who cheated me for not cuming! Khai Hui cheated me that he was at Kepong with family, so not able come bck and celebrate with me! i was like o.o when i fetched michelle and khai hui to my house, i passed by Chee Keng's house. well, i really had to say. the suprise from babi is totally failed! =D i saw his car parked in front of his house while he was waiting for cheekeng with kah ying. hahahaha =DChee Keng =) you came too! i really tot that you'll choose just stay at home do ur revision for A2 exam than come celebrate with us till late night~ Happy birthday , my twin =)

Last to say,

I had lots of suprises today from you all...more than what i've been expected. Especially some of them who cheated me that they were not cuming!!

At first i really though that i'll have a lonely birthday on my Big Day~staying at home facing tonnes of books study for the final exam on tuesday ='( but you guys had lighten up my Big Day with lot of suprises and happiness!! so, im happy to say that im not alone for my 19th birthday! You guys gave me a blast 19th this year =D I enjoyed my day till the max with you all....Glad to have friends like you all with our 13years long lasting friendship... hugs

My 19th - part II

Date : 22-05-2010 (saturday)
Time : 7pm to nearly 12am

Venue : Neway

This morning when i woke up, mum told me that tonight might not going to Neway for celebration. Will just go to The Ship or some chinese restaurant for a simple dinner. I was like O.o But inside me was sad-inG!! How could my mum suddenly changed her mind?! She was the one who suggested this... Ya, I did showed her my 'mm song' faces and ran up to my room after that. Around 3plus, she called me to get ready at 530pm. I asked her why so early @@ She told me that we are going to Neway later. And i had to call Neway and make booking for that. I was thinking, is my mum feel guilty for suddenly chg the plan? or she just wanna made me sad at 1st then happy later?

Yes, Kampai Ice =) i ordered 20bottles for the night..and i finished 4I lurve my mami =D Pink roses ♥ thx for knowingly i lurve pink so mucchhhMy Yi Ma, cousin sister and her daughther - yi xuan aka my cute cute niece My cousin sister and her boyfriend with my cute cute niece =pMy yi ma =D who take care of me during old daysThe naughty boy - ah yang Bro forced us to do this!and of cos i wanted them to that do me as well =pi love my family =)

Thx to my family and relative for giving me another Awesome Night!~

with lurve,
teng.
xoxo

My 19th - part I

Date : 21-05-2010 ( Friday )

Venue : Delicious @ Jln Tun Razak

Suppose to have our dinner @ Full House - Jln Yap Kwan Seng. But when we reached there, Oh no! our table was not under the air-cond. and the atmosphere there was so damn HOT! We couldn't chg table too, cos just leaved the only table for 10 of us to sit in. In the end, we ciao and chged to Delicious which last year babi Han and Kang Ping celebrated their Birthday there. Of cos, Here is much more better =) never regret for the last min chg place to celebrate =p

First to say, I met my Darling-Lydia after couple of months =( i really miss you muchhhhhh ♥ i promised, i'll go out with you right after my final ends ^^ Miss wey wey =) i knew u had fewer last night='( but u still came today! Luv you ♥ Lee Xin Peng ! why you no smile in this photo!!!!! =( Althea =) thx for cuming, i knw u had to passup ur assginment on monday. And you're willing to rush ur assignment in the middle of night after the dinner *so gam dong*Phoebe Tan :)Choi Yen =) Saya punya BF-Babi Friend! Chan Yit Han, the babi =p Today i dunwan wait for you =) its ur turn to wait for me now! so, i purposely go abit late =p Sean Tan. Finally this pic got ur *smile* ! but its quite blur =(
Me myself Wan Teng =)
with the birthday card got from the Delicious Group ^^ so nice !!
Babi han, don't jealous that why on ur birthday they didnt gv u this too =p its bcos of your babi face prob =D wakakakaka Peng bully both of us ='(You can see the happy smile on my face =p Yes, I'm happy ^^Here comes the bill =) time to say gudbye ~Dear Friends, Thx for the everything, :)
the girls ♥ hugs

more picha will be upload once i got them from sean tan. ^^

To those who came just now, thx for the advance birthday celebration =) Glad to have nice and good friends like you ALL!! i appreciated much ♥

And of cos i'll never forget how althea and phobe pressed my head to the cake! goshhhh.....cream on my face ='( my makeup...luckily not so BAD! still remain about the same....So my very *1st time* like that already gave to them on TODAY =(

You all gave me an unforgettable night~ hugs

Once again, thank for the presents and yummy cake ^^

Especially thanks to Yit Han and Sean here, cause both of them are so kind, helping me fetch the girls come and sending them home. *thankful*

What should i say more?
Good nitex ^^

with love,

wan teng
xoxo

我爱你!

特别的日子, 给特别的你:

如果在520前面加上721，那会是什么密语？

<< 亲爱的，我爱你 >> ♥

谁能给我勇气?

最终,

我还是没有那个勇气,

没有勇气告诉你我一直好想对你说的那6个号码,

" 721 520 "

谢谢你们给了我勇气,

但我还是选择了放弃!

我只是 静静的倒数着剩下的几分钟~

p/s: 又是另一封发不出去的简讯 ~ 我何时变得这么懦弱?

19.05

About My *lucky* and her *lucky*

1st to say, me myself =(

Get ready to go out to celebrate the birthday boy-babi's birthday. Since im fetching Khai Hui So i shun bin fetched Khai Hui's mum and bro to their old house. I had my Hard Time after i dropped her mum and bro to their old house! Wtf =='' Seriously there got no where for me to reverse to get my ass car out from the little tiny road! with cars double parking around. Wished that i was driving a Kancil or kelisa at that time! Yea, Reversed for few times, but still i failed x.x the disadvantage of having a car with a boot! issshhh.....in the end, she opened her neighbbour gate for me to reverse! huh...FINALLY i could reversed out but with so mny pairs of eyes witnessed at me how i reversed out! Damn it! so shame of that =( thats why i don't really like drive into her old house to fetch her....i rather ask her wait me somewhere outside her house during old days! My story ended! then headed to others' house to fetch the rest of them and buy cake...

2nd its about Her-Khai Hui

We went to Steven Corner while waiting for the birthday boy back from his celebration with his college frenz. Kh ordered the food - Teh Tarik and duno what what =D when her teh tarik came, she drink abit. Most funny part, she saw a FLY inside her teh tarik! hahahaha....'lucky'? of cos she got another 1.... When her food came, she duno whats that (cheese-naan) and she ate it. After few bites, she realised that ''Why got CHEESE geh''~ cheese naan wasnt the food she ordered! ( you also sap ha sap ha geh =p ate the wrong oredered food). Funny hor?

p/s : i knew that i missed out some funny chatting you all had just now...just bcos i went back home early =( regret now x.x shouldn't back home 1st~ sob sob

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Dear Yi Xin & Chuan Huat '',)

Happy 19th Birthday~! 生日快乐!! =)

18.05

Girls, i miss you all =) ♥

exactly 1 more week then we can meet again which is on our 1st day Final Exam

Non-stop listening to Jay Chou's new songs, since yesterday!

''说了再见'' & ''雨下一整晚''

Sometime, i love the song mainly because of the lyrics itself....♥

Just Because the lyrics itself truly help me express out what im wanna to say, Every words is touching my heart deeply,

you tell me how could i stop myself from listening to it? =D

有时歌词的细腻,往往正是描述着我们的心情....难道不是吗?

究竟点解?

我真系...真系好唔开心

但系, 你地知唔知?
或者,
是因为我对你地有太多的 expectation
希望在你地身上...能够找到我一直以来好想要geh快乐?

但系原来,
希望得越大, 失望就越大
应该讲一直以来系我想得太多左！

无可否认，
我对你地系有点失望，
但系我又可以讲点，做点也耶？
你地唔得，唔想...
我可以点样？
唔通真的走去避你地去做点你地唔想做geh耶meh？

曾经应承过某人, 我唔会再对任何人乱发脾气
现在的我系学识左如何去忍气吞声, 带住微笑去面对一切.....
系, 系他改变左我, 但系好系坏? 我已经不在乎

既然已成事实, 我又能够做点也耶？我唯有去选择接受
我唔会去怪任何人~我亦无权力去怪任何人
就gum啦~

早歇！

Where? Who? When? How?

The conv. btw me and my mum just now :

Mum and Me

how are you going to celebrate your 19th birthday?
hmmm...idk
I though that day you told me u wanna open house?
But most of my frenz they're having exam ....i don't think they will be able to come
um : then where u wanna celebrate? when?
whatever la! sui bian* go where celebrate also can, as long as not Jogoya
Let me think for you 1st~~~
ohhhhhh....
when are you going to celebrate with your frenz?
Err...Haven plan for it wor~
Why not we go Redbox plus Sing K? You can invite your friends along.
i was like =='' har? want meh?
why not?
very kik sui la....I duno should ask which gang of frenz lor...primary or secondary 1? I don't think they will dare to sing in front of you..HAHAHAHAHA
when is your final exam?
25th may, the day right after my BIRTHDAY!!!! ='(
then when you gonna celebrate with your frenz?
Maybe fri and sun lor..since sat ady booked by you =D
waa, your exam is on tuesday...but you still can go out on sunday. No need study ?
nevermind la...1year once ma =p so what you gonna buy me as my birthday present this year? *evil evil*
then what you want ? tell me lor...*she smile at me*
Hahaahahahahhaa....i haven think of it, but i'll tell you when i know what i want =D

In the end, still no conclucion on how to celebrate? when to celebrate? where to celebrate
The A2 exam totally spoiled my mood to celebrate my last birthday start with the 1. Argh!
我不贪心, 我的要求真的不高
其实任何形式的生日派对对我来而言, 我真的不在乎
今年的生日,好想只是和某人过.
这样就够了

# 9

The lights are off, I am lying down,
Thinking of myself , my past and yesterday.

I should not have do it,
I regret, I beg for forgiveness,
No one knows this feeling I have to go through it every night,
When its just me and the world, no one else, lack of light.....

Simplicity can be Complicated.
I wanted this feeling I have been searching for,
But Now its killing me back,
The day he left, I wanted that comfort, warm and tender,
Nobody can give me that feeling back now as long as its not from him,
But someone came into my life gave me a feeling close to that,
Something I wish could be a dream and ever forget.

I could not get an answer, God please answer my prayers,
According to when you want,
But I just want You to know, dont take too long,
I might not be able to handle it,
My life is like a song,
Look into my eyes and tell me do I seem alright?

There is nothing anyone can say, I love you so much,
I want that touch , baby please dont take it away,
I want to fade away with the wind,
Just go where it takes me,
I am in a state where this is what people want to see,
I dont think this is where I want to be...

Consume me, change me back,
I am sitting with no expression, No explanation,
I want that day to come or maybe just that moment,
Please come and take this pain away.

p.s : Tell me what should i do?

12.05

Venue : Rendezous Steak Garden ( Dinner / YumCha )

Cam-whore in da car while waiting for the BABI!!!!!!!!!!!
Forever want me to wait for HIM!!!!!! babi betul!!!!

Both are in Polo Tee tonight =)

Just 3 of us ( Yen ...Teng...Han )
Chit~chat time for us =)Found a Heart Shape deco here ♥

你们问我, 难道我还放不下''他''吗?

霎那间, 我真的傻了...开始犹豫了

我...应该老实的回答还是? 继续得伪装自己对他的感情

是的, 我还爱着他..我放不下..我还是会挂念他..想关心他

可是, 那又能怎样?

* 一个手掌是拍不响的 *

或许你们说得很对,

我仍然接受不了我们已经分手的事实...

p/s : 我真的没有勇气, 我选择了...............逃避