为什么

心痛,
是什么感觉?

我伤心，我难过，我在哭
你知道吗？
你在乎吗？

为什么你要这样对我?!

为什么你连正眼看都不看我一眼！

Why you don't even look at me just for one sight ?
Why you just acted cool aside when u saw me there ?
Why you suddenly became quiet when i reached there......
My appear......really suprised you?!

You'll never know how i feel when i looked at you, but you looked at another way.
You just don't bother whether im there or not......
Do i looked like the air? Just invisible to you?
Beside walked away from the table, what can i do anymore?
Impossible you wanna see me cry in front of you while at the same time my family were there too.....Of course I had to hold my tears from falling down...
I couldnt had a proper dinner in *The Ship*~ I dont finished my steak.....my mind just fulled of Him him and him...FOOLish~

就像你说的，
难道我对他的不再是爱，只是一直以来的习惯？


或许，我只是...
习惯了他对我的好
习惯了有他的陪伴
习惯了有他在身边
习惯了他对我的爱

可是, 我对他的感觉，依然一样，不曾改变过...

哭过就好了
难道你不知道哭了今晚，但还有明天，后天.....
其实哭了，我不会更好，只会更难
没有了他，我怎么会好！
你们只是被伪装出来的我，骗了！
我怎么可能不哭？不难过?不心痛？
口口声声说忘了他，只是不想让你们担心我罢了！

我不提起他的名字，不是我把他给忘了
我只是不想让你们知道原来我还很在乎他，我关心他
我对他的冷漠。。
不是代表我不爱他了，我不想他了
只是我仍鼓不起一丝丝的勇气，让他知道我还关心他，我依然那么的爱他~

千言万语尽在不言中，但他可曾让我对他好好说过？

你问我 ：

w : 为什么你要一直看着他的背影，为什么不要走在他前面?
T : 除此之外，我想不到我还能做些什么了！ 既然我和他不能再像两条平行线，拥有一样的步伐。。现在的我只能默默的跟在他的背后。。。。至少让我知道他过的好不好~


I think i’m foolish to even though that i love you because you didn’t love me anymore.
Its been 4 months now but i still spend my time cherishing all those memories between you and me. I still can’t believe that i chose to follow my heart than my head . look at where i’m at . lost, tired and still crushed. I miss you so much . We haven’t talked that much these days. I worry about you still.


Why did you leave me alone ? Why am i the one still holding on.........
I can’t take the pressure of my heart anymore.
Im going to be crazy ~~~~~~~~~~~ someday
if i continue thinking about you....missing you

Crying for you, when will it ends ?

PS :
I just love him. Even though he doesn’t love me anymore. I think.
"I want nobody nobody nobody but YOU" - obviously is saying to YOU

with tears...

(sorry, my blog start emo again)